The past four days have been so difficult. I try so hard to stay busy and think of other things, but I find the majority of my thoughts are about the baby. I cannot get the statement, "empty sac", out of my brain. I am clinging to the hope of just being early and the ultrasound not being able to pick up anything but my human fears and worries get the best of me.
If I would have never experienced the two miscarriages, I don't think this would faze me all that much. You know the old expression, ignorance is bliss. However, one of the two miscarriages was called a blighted ovum and that is when you have an empty gestational sac but your body continues to think you are pregnant and you continue with the normal symptoms until you finally miscarry.
I find myself in constant conversation with God, praying for peace and comfort. It's so true that when you are struggling the most is when you are most intimate with God. I can look back over my Christian walk and see this and for sure, now.
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i have thought of you often and am praying for you daily. let me know if you need to talk or anything else.
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